Bring me to the next level God. I think im ready, but you know best ! :)
I think i've greater capacity to take in more.
Thank God for helping me through.
Although work's been busy, but i think i still can take it with the strength from God.
It's so true.. What you think will determine how much you can do.
if you start changing your thinking.. and believe YOU CAN DO IT!
you will be able to do it..

relationship wise, i thought we were dead, but i kept believing in us, and now see clear improvement between our conversations. lets work together darling. we can and we will do it ! Aim as far as possible. jia you !

workplace wise, i thought im gona faint real soon with all the piling work. i thought it was too much for me to handle.. i thought im gona screw so many things.. but still i manage be a value add to my workplace. my next aim is to make a difference. jia you !

family.. it was broken. and i thought it's just too difficult to reconcile.. but what's difficult for God.. i see improvement.. Just 2 more harder nut to crack.. all will be fine. I pray for complete reconciliation.

ministry wise... hmmm ~ im still trying hard here. i lost my comm skills between friends. so blocked out from social life and my Bi really doesn't want that to happen in my life. im trying hard. to do well in this area of my life. And im slowly improving. I will do a lot better. :)

pardon me !
i've been too busy to blog man!
and i totally know ! that my blog is decaying !

hmmmmmm ~
so tired ! and i think i need some rest . heh!
but it's been fruitful.
i like being helpful ! :)

keanu bi's little nephew can't stop calling me ! he brightens up my day more than bi does sometimes. super cute ! hahaha. Love it when he goes " AH YI ~ ! also when he pouts his lips.. hehe.. he is learning how to walk.. this boy has strong legs ~ Smart boy that learns fast !

on the side note....
There's a lot to think through.
gone through so much. thought all would go well.
but i've now 2nd 3rd 4th 5th thoughts of things!

Jiawen will tell God her prayer.
God will lead her in His way!

oh yesh !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY !
(im talking about jasper tan here, not my biological dad, it's just that this daddy here doesn't allow me to call him by name! lol!)

my eldest uncle - mummy big bro passed away this morning.
that's why i HATE cancer.. taking away my family members!

My heart's heavy.. but God put peace into my heart.
Mummy told me that after a month, he got approval from grandma,
and so he got baptised two days ago.. on the hospital bed? Not very sure.
Didn't expect him to leave us so fast.
but at least God took away his pain and tears and brought him home.
may he rest in peace....

God has got to be my guider, my teacher.
He's the best Co-ordinator in this universe !
Im just a tiny lil me. (in coparison with the whole earth)
but he has got my life planned out from the start to the end !
And co-ordinated people that walk in, out or stay in my life.
Cooll

I realise i have never shared any of my company's works here right !
okok.. since i've got nth to do except waiting for the SLOW printer..
let me share some of the latest webbies we've launched.

Waterproofing Trades Association Singapore
Engineering Portal for the Polytechnics in Singapore (end of last year)
Temasek JC Check out the Virtual Tour!
ITE College Central

One of the last few 199web projects.
I think this is really pretty: Blueimage International

Exciting upcoming would be:
Millennia Institute and National Cadet Corps!
I'm excited to see the full websites up!

ohh ~ my printing's completed ! Im going home now..
meeting early morning tomorrow.
tatas!

AHHH ~ super tired today. reach office at 825 this morning.
Had lots of printing and binding to do.
because there's two tenders to submit today..
tiring seh! Lucky i got hardworking interns that are willing to help me..

I WANNA GO HOME!
but im still preparing for the 2 meetings that i have tomorrow.
busy busy busy..
i wanna sleep..

dui bu qi baobei..
can't meet you today..

and sorry darling..
im just too tired to go over today..
(just like how you are lazy to come over)

a random chat with my interns..
about how old i am. and they realise that i'm only 1 year older than them.
wei chong went like "... and you are my project supervisor!"
ya.. actually im not very old although sometimes i feel i am...

im wondering.. how to get over the past.
i meant.. a past that has got almost nothing to do with me.
but i'm quite affected by it.
i brought it to myself.. i went to find out myself..
and got myself into a bad mood.
matter to not know right?


I need more confidence.. more courage.!

my misses.. God knows...
my love.. God knows..
my fears.. God knows..
my worries.. God knows..

my God knows it all.
I pray repeatedly.. for your safety and health..
God protection will be upon you.

How can you be so far away for so long!
I promised that i'll not cry..
(i teared half a drop of tear... that's not crying right?)

You told me to keep myself occupied..
and here's a little confession:
i didn't miss you when i was occupied with work!

But once work ends.
i miss you badly..
QUICK COME BACK LAH!
or at least be contactable mah..
your girlfriend here is a lot better than the wild boars that you meet out there!

PS: im excited for our 999th day! :) im in the midst of preparation..